Then I remember what the priest last week said. Don't be too harsh on yourself. All those disciples of Jesus were weak, insecure and ambitious before they became holy.
Of course, those words, even if I do agree with them, do not make me feel better. But maybe I will just bask in all these negative emotions for a while. I will simmer in them. And then maybe when I wake up tomorrow, they will be gone.
Experience has taught me that sleeping on something isn't such a bad idea. Tomorrow is another day. And it should be better than today.
